likeatragicsmile

2010-11-19T23:24:00.000+08:00

i am aware that i am exhausted, feeble, incapable of carrying out strenuous task and yet again, i did.

certain habits are unstoppable, for instance like mine, insisting on baking what more it's a bun, mexican buns that i never dared to try.

human like me belonged to this category which i name over zealous, not a moment to be spared some sort of species. mostly applicable to passion in baking and cleaning, i bear no dirt and mess but only in my hostel room since i'm in control of it and my tools for baking. however, even i have to go through days by practically stoning and rot, estranged from reality, i can barely take it at first but now, it can be something blissful cause i forced myself to be familiar with it and loneliness isn't harmful all the time. days spent with movies and junks, occasionally is a treat, but frequent turns you into a big fat sloth like what i'm turning into now FML.

worst part of all, i have every reason to get worried bout my health, skin, and yes, fertility. trying whatever i can with braveness to take precautions and face the consequences which you may like it or not, it doesn't seem to matter. i did what i believed was correct not knowing how correct it is and how it works on each individuals. only time can tell.

hang on, my mood swings are drastic not just any normal being can handle, that's just what i have become through time and starting to understand and accepting what i am. don't judge me if you say i pushed myself hard, cause for me there isn't a moment to lose, you never know what you might end up today or tomorrow. i still insist to achieve my intended dreams, accomplishing something that makes me happy although sacrifices are made, especially to my family, not sure if i'm doing alright but am improving for the better and it has to worth the effort, benefit, for all of us.

let's say, i used to count every single calorie intake of what i consume, ain't easy, some say what a torture
and i say it did work and came with unpleasant side effect. look at me now, munching on chips and sinful calorie laden fried chicken away happily, talk about obese! me! oh god, i can't face it, but eating makes me happy, something i found out bout myself after all these years, i eat when emotionally imbalance. stop me!

as a frugal shopper and a thrifty spender sucker for cheats stuff! be it incredibly ridicule or not, as long as i find it's a stealer, i grab and go, that's just how i spent not knowing if it's wearable on me. see, can you get any rationale behind my actions? no one have to, that's why we study sociology and we make friends, different types of them, right? to prove that anyone can be as abnormal/ normal as you are.

and again, repetition of what i mentioned earlier as i'm writing this with my drooping popping out eye bags and soring backs and wrinkled hands. yes indeed, i don't treat my body well but i feed my tummy ample enough (mainly others). that's it, i am way done here.

sleep people, anti-batmans aka human species who lives at night and sleeps through day. you call that life?

2010-11-05T12:23:00.000+08:00

filling up the emptiness and deadness of blog.

metamorphosis

2010-10-12T22:21:00.003+08:00

no more grandma story post. cause life's too short to be filled with long winded story, everyone seems too occupied to have time for it. right?

cut those crap, straight to my point.

the point is,

i have got none. heard me loud and clear.

easy enough to get it. why so?

i'm just living life, circling around the universe as arranged, unperturbed, embracing whatever that was destined to us.

technically, i'm not against the conventional, instead going through a transition, modifying along the way, unrehearsed. that's what i'm ought to do. altering a lil bit here and there, adding my sui generis, there goes my defined path.

not sure bout yours but for sure more or less the same.

reminding myself before i go ahead and repeating the same process i defer and loathed wishing some wonder would fall upon you which ends up with a devastating hope. plain useless.

'hope' what i call motivating factors plays its role too. it can be anything from people to objects or even dream, a realistic one of course to stimulate yourself. i have one i guess?

you fall and you rise along the way, we humans call it a life learning process. why do i sound so mismatch?

never mind, moving on to my point. no idea what my point was. just had the need to fill this space.

oh ya, do you know you'll always have a good time while catching up with your bestie? cause i feel so and that just made my day =D

note: each time the thought of it crosses my mind, i tried to ignore yet outside factors are bringing those remorse feelings out and makes me guilty and sick, i cannot help it but to get fed up again and again, forgive me if i feel that way, no more regrets this time, history cannot be repeating itself, just so wrong.

2010-10-03T17:02:00.001+08:00

super random shots, tony moly products, dad's watch and dining hall lamp.

too lazy to brag bout on going stuff but for your concern, above are shot manually, proud*

many things to get done, till then, ciao!

think of me? will ya?

2010-09-10T00:57:00.001+08:00

once again, i am homesick..

each time i'm back home as in where i was born, time is never wasted, fully occupied and 24/7 on the run.

wished time would stay stagnant or slow moving so that i, as someone who treasure whatever that comes, seriously, especially the malls and food, i would eat all i can and just loiter for hours without feeling bored, even my tv not that i don't own one here which is left unused, it's that precious to be home..

i need not expect sympathy, so not necessary but slight empathy is abundant from what i feel.

occasionally, i may have had my emotions pouring out unintentionally, no harm really, a release of sentiment are required by humans, or else he/she will not be sane.

here is an expression of unseen side of me, my true words you can never tell by doing the day to day talking.
not that i actually speak to people that often, been locked up in room for whole day doing my 'thang'.
social networking is out of my mind at the moment, have to admit it's darn strenuous studying at this level, at some point we all have to grow up don't we? just the matter of time you're getting exposed to such demanding task.

it's almost 1 o in the morning, trained myself to stay up till this hour since i stayed here. people here are like batman, sleeping through daytime and starts hunting when night falls, totally reversed against the healthy normal routine, the effect is morbid and i swear not to turn into one yet i already have. what a tragic.

tomorrow's another repeating process, yawns*

off to bed! my eyebags are sagging~ TT

gather-round

2010-08-25T11:17:00.104+08:00

at my place,

i served these muffins

and flans

the kids were the main guest,

peek-a-boo! cutie pie take 1,

boo!

imma rock like elvis

my model for the day,

she was posing for me =D

my fav shot of her, spot that dimple?

grandma take 1,

take 2,

and she posed!

those gifted fingers, never was mine...

that's all for now, i'm really new at this, still stuck at P and auto focus mode XD

weekends was so fulfilling, been busying everyday... always feels good to be back and have fun with cousins.
i was stupid/dumb/forgetful enough to not bring my toy to the birthday party, FML. there was so many more kids around and those food, i missed pot luck!

finals are in 2 weeks, i screwed badly like wayyyyyy bad at law, so so dissappointed, efforts were build into it and i really enjoyed that subject, it's the only lecture class that i have my 100% attention paid on it, you can ask anyone who sits next to me, they would see me scribbling the entire page for the whole time. Guess i was wrong, scoring and learning are different when it comes to application. finals, i have my bets on ya ;)

2010-08-18T22:22:00.001+08:00

banana muffins, first attempt with my new lover. i really need to learn more to make full use of its beauty.

cant say i'm that satisfied with my shots but hey, in the process of learning here~

more experimental shots and read ups required and i do hope to join some nikon fan club perhaps? road trips

and projects, new friends, exchanging ideas, sounds fun even though just an imagination right?

2010-08-08T13:25:00.000+08:00

an average lifespan is good enough. So what I do is, I try not to eat unneccessary calories. What I mean by unncessary calories is food that just fills you up but tastes yuckky. Remember that since you have limited calories to spend, you might as well spend it on food that tastes good. DON'T WASTE YOUR CALORIES on a plate of unremarkable Char Kway Teow. No, you should save up your calories for that juicy US Prime Rib steak at the end of the week. - ieatishootipost -

agreeable =D

missing the pouring rain

2010-07-31T00:16:00.002+08:00

so this is it,

it's been quite some time, a month isn't that long, does it?

i'm a terrible person at keeping up with things or humans.

let's say this blog here and yea, even my classmates, i am such half past six person, ain't i?

nothing peculiar to fill in, gone are the days of summer, shall leave the past behind and like mum said, i owed to be focused on my purpose of being with no regrets. *finger crossed*

i found myself often in a tensed and jumpy mode. self admitting without feeling shameless, i had shed tears, so what? getting outside your comfort zone isn't something easy like going on a long vacation ya know? what more to say when you are stuck in the outskirt of town, life doesn't goes on as they used to. exceptions here, not in a billion years i will be diagnosed as 'stressed out', stress are for losers, never me =DD

you will just have to bear on and fit in like me, a size 5 fitting in to size 4 although it seems tight and uncomfy at first, but the longer you wear them, it loosens, eventually fits just because you are forced to wear it, like your uniform.

god, what example was i giving? sounded corny, eeekk. nonetheless, i miss blogging, hard to hear from me but true, just felt irresponsible for dumping it ever since it's my duty to update my diary and letting it out and god knows who does actually reads my ramblings, feeling rather consoled already.

honestly, time flies real fast over here and it didn't felt long, the days goes on and on just like the others.
haven't found any worthy comrades yet, despite classmates which are a bunch of cranky people, not that i despises them, people here are kinda 'unusual' in a good way though, takes time to ally myself with them when things are still shaky around here.

geezzz.. i think i am anti social, for the moment, blame someone for turning me into one. only force that drives me going currently is preparing my own meal, don't laugh cause it's not funny! not too long to go before my d90 arrives, and get to balik kampung in 2 weeks time after a month of perseverance, can't wait =D

till then,

ciao lovelies

2010-07-03T16:39:00.000+08:00

discreetly vanishing from thin air.

this thing has nothing left for me.

too dead to be bothered, forgive me...

but who knows, if i feel like it, this thing here might pop up something real brilliant? never make faulty assumptions ;D

all you need to know is, whatever i whined or cried about, it's getting better and i'm learning to hang on to it despite pitying myself slightly, these people changed me in a way, blaming no one cause it doesn't seems to matter?

cut the crap, be right back...

2010-06-12T21:14:00.000+08:00

im home for the weekends, skipped 2 classes D:

but worthwhile, teeheee..

i miss home cooked food, outside food bores me out and i got to touch the kitchen again! bake bread and 鸡蛋糕 (don't get me wrong yea) for dear granny. more to go tomorrow for family and friends.

im in deficiency of clothes! need to pack more cause i packed real light during previous trip.

so many yet so little time, weekends are never sufficient and when it's time to leave, you turn mushy and inseparable. i hate that part =(

ain't it great to be home? well, think again.

2010-06-01T11:05:00.000+08:00

city life misses me...

and i won't lie that i'm still struggling to be adjusted to this new lifestyle. i mean anyone will go through such stage right?

ya say freedom awaits, well that is a wrong statement for my case. never really felt so. i would rather enjoy my freedom back at home being surrounded with family, at least i don't sympathize myself.

but life goes on as usual, a tad more bland and cant help to feel alienated

so what, i'm on my own now and i shall not whine further more.

if others can, so can i.

2010-05-21T22:29:00.001+08:00

spent precious moments with my fav people on earth

short meet ups with long ~~lost~~ time no see high school mates, god i miss them heaps..

been stuffing self with fooood cause imma foodie person and nothing peculiar bout it.

eat all i can and ditch weight matters aside despite my tummy bulging out which seemed 3 months pregnant, FTW. life is all bout living the most out of it, basic universal sense anyone would figure out. right?

gone nearly off the edge, felt guilty bout keeping things discrete from parents but i am making it up to them by adhering to their principle of life (what shit am i blabbing?)

moving on,

need more of those retail therapy and entertainment before im being sent off to what i call suburb or worst than that, i ve whined enough bout it and people are getting annoyed, lalalalala...

while i can, there will be no boundaries existing for the moment, teehee XD

2010-05-10T21:35:00.000+08:00

bit late but happy mother's day to all mamas

got free cakes from cupcakechic. sinfully a sin! sugar overdosed XD

2010-05-08T23:24:00.000+08:00

dang dang dang

when can i get my play kit. i mean d90? d3000? or none of them will come through eventually..

get me one hurry, please... and pray lord that i ll guard it with my life and utilize its potentials to the max. fingers crossed*

charmed by a train

2010-05-05T22:22:00.001+08:00

sem break and i'm occupying myself so far so good. heee

yesterday kampar day trip was filled with 'awesomeness' i tell you. to rent a house is like zzzz toughest task ever~

mine

his

bon voyage

i'll miss

home, like duhhh..

buddies, high school most

shopping, tesco so not counted

wireless, that place have some serious connection issue, bahhh

and my air cond! the heat is unbearable, think sahara desert, kid not.

all in all, 3 fugging years of tormenting life. i dread the day of my departure.

kampar is great for retirees, for students are dungeon of a hell.

2010-04-28T21:54:00.000+08:00

leng mou my stickers?

out of boredom XD

2010-04-23T23:18:00.000+08:00

welcome newbie =D

am waiting for the right moment, d3ooo or 1000d? dang, i'm so hasty in decision making.

2 sub for finals, can't wait to get done with it, bahhh

too occupied for you

2010-04-11T17:40:00.001+08:00

pc fair next week, not sure if i can go.*sigh*

BB for weekends. lifeless shit. bahhh

final's in two weeks time, yet still not in mood for studies. yikes!

i miss jungle trekking =/ BROGA hills anyone?

and of course, thanks for the gift =D

see my tumblr for my pancakes. d'lish i tell u <3

how random is my post huh? im not much different compared to a pig that's why.

ps: i sense freedom, NOT!

2010-03-31T22:52:00.001+08:00

test tomorrow yet im free enough to post stuff, i seem so free wtf.

ups and down do exist and good time flashes by with just a blink of an eye. dream on if you think it'll stay cause that's not how the universal theory works.

i am keen about photography these days, and boy did i knew it ain't as kacang as you presume. my courage was put to the test and imagination has taken its place. once, i walked by this stall and was attracted with the spectrum colours of display, so i snapped, quick and smooth, unfortunately got caught by owner with a sinister glare followed by 'what's your problem?". how =.="""" right? that aunty really has some issue with cameras.

finance and cost acct, 2 subs to deal with, there ends my foudation and hopefully with a distinction, possible eh? tsk tsk*

hi there strangers

2010-03-25T21:37:00.000+08:00

keeping in touch with humans take heaps of effort. agreee? nothing ever comes easy, not leaving out the basic conversation like how do you do? or even simpler, HI, for crying out loud. took me loads of courage to mouth the words, i even think twice before spilling it out. pathetic fuhhh

blames self for being anti-social but geezzz, imma lazy hassle-free crowd follower, say hi only when i know that person will respond back for sure or unless he/she initiated the hi, then i'm motivated to react. other factors, don't even think bout it. i just won't say hi! =P

nasty behavior of mine, but never too late to give another shot, right??? but i do smile, counted? *sheepishly grins*

2010-03-14T22:18:00.000+08:00

nothing better to do. posting random stuff out of boredom. or rather say ditching crucial stuff and fool around here? it don't seems to matter...

2010-03-13T20:25:00.001+08:00

product from the utough. taken back in hometown. excuse the last 2 pic of up skirt and that horrid expression. heehee. if her mum sees this she will have my head off.

nonetheless, olympus is merely passable, still lacking behind compared to renowned ones.

lx3, i will get my hands on you, soon enough...

envious

2010-03-05T20:37:00.000+08:00

i'm fond of you, but never be too full of yourself. *full stop*

lights out...

2010-02-24T12:11:00.000+08:00

rawr~

sharing stuff is real shitty when it comes to title and authority, pain in my royal ass. screw sharing is for caring, never worked out on me. so yea, thanks dad, for sharing with me. urghh. how ironic!

im blaming the whole universe for wrecking my life into oh-so-miserable state. seriously, i have got to be more persistent if i want to keep up with humans.

ps:you are so not responding to my request, just pressing the god damn button won't even break a nail.

wooing over you =D

2010-02-12T22:10:00.001+08:00

bad shape stuff, don't even know why i got those brooches. i just had to get stuff outta there but i was pennyless(spent way on my hand cream TT) so settled with stuff i never thought would buy. *sigh* regretting already...

how i wish if i was able to venture into stuff that ignites my passion rather than blahh(whatever im doing), worship whoever who does that, but seriously, i would let them do their endless ramblings on how 'great' they're doing by making yours sound incompatible to them. c'mon, gimme a break?! moreover, i don't intrude people because im nice unlike you =P

before i vanished into some ulu kampung rural place somewhere at the tip of kelantan, wishing people happy CNY!!!

2010-02-10T14:46:00.001+08:00

we were born not just to spend life but to appreciate life.

here i am giggling away with myself (imma retard) and browsing through beautiful things in life yet many miles away from here, parents are giving morally support to a struggling patient, diagnosed with lymphoma who just gone unconscious yesterday, chances of pulling it through? rare...

mum mentioned last night how we take things for granted and i said what can one do if you know you're reaching the end of the road and tried every single alternatives available and there's nothing else you could do? either you move on? grieve with them? pray for miracle? retreat? you be the decider.

stop being ignorant bout what's going on around you and the least you could do is to acknowledge them and learn.

im fine at the moment. how bout you?
ps: dear grand uncle, stay strong~

2010-02-08T14:08:00.000+08:00

managed to shed some lipids over the past 3 months and now back to weight gaining program cause new year is coming babes..

egg white cake was a flop! taste was good but it went flat, i mean i followed exactly and i demand to know why!

1 down, 6 more to go.

up next, choc souffle, decadent fruitcake, oatmeal banana cookies, carrot cake(again), swiss rolls and brownie cupcake, yadayadayada..

u will witness my downfall soon =(

2010-01-28T12:32:00.000+08:00

studying made me lackluster!

have never been such zealous over studies, something must have gone wrong. doubts*

updates after finals, yikes! im thinking bout sem break already, pinch me!

promiscuous

2010-01-21T23:59:00.001+08:00

i
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going
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no
w h e r e

'intentions' unaccomplished, mostly loop-sided.
'duties' undone, to be exact, i procrastinated.
'desire' unfulfilled, drifting apart, beyond my reach.
'inspirations' detaching itself, monkeyed brain now.

tell me, what am i to do when hanging in such oblivious state.

that's it, I will get what i WANT the way i WANT.
* see how i emphasize on the term, signifying i do mean it, for real.

2010-01-15T20:15:00.000+08:00

oops, only pic i got with you. hehe

birthday wishes to both brotha (pathetically conservative and antisocial nerd but oh well, we share the same genes so not gonna argue on that) and Nat! my darling, nice to hear from you today we will meet up soon after my finals k ;)

so long darlings, moi have to get on with errands and studies cause someone finals is in 2 weeks time!!! dang, i'm so off limits. till then, adios~

2010-01-09T15:05:00.000+08:00

i will not be associated with anymore remorse.

i wish to treat people better in the sense hoping them to understand that i do care, but i'm a dork when it comes to this matter.shoot me!

finicky rhymes with my name and i admit it comes with a quicksilver character, cool and willful at one moment, utterly fragile the next.

your endurance towards me, i cannot thank enough. even the simplest tender act and concerns you poured on me, i never once acknowledge it without profound gratitude.

spare me some time and i am going to marvel you at a point you never believed.

ciao lovelies~

flickering away

2010-01-05T21:24:00.002+08:00

people, yours sincerely here would like to own one of these babes but could never make a choice. semi pro or pro? or stay loyal to good old lx 3? *ponders*

your mademoiselle wish to have a compact size camera of a semi pro but equipped with great features of a pro and aware that it is pretty toilsome in choosing the ONE. help will be very much appreciated.

mucho gracias~

2009-12-31T23:28:00.000+08:00

i never thought i would say this but 2009, i am not done with you...

it's been a whirlwind year for me, how's yours? but still it came and past with just a snap in lightning speed and hard to say goodbye to you. note: no resolutions for next year though XD

Next, 2010, so prepare yourself peeps, are you ready?

ps: doesn't feel like a new year eve this year, you know why =(((

2009-12-26T16:12:00.000+08:00

rooster wtf!

my Christmas is somewhat odd, no turkeys or caroling nor it involves in the usual customs people do.

but still it was fine cause i got to hang out with besties <3

so yea, burned calories in some bukit and now back to reality check, i have presentations for the next 2 weeks and nothing seems to be done about it. save my tears till then, for now, i'm fuss free or what i suppose to be, in a holy jolly mood =D

santa rang my doorbell with illuminating glow, how comforting...

2009-12-20T23:04:00.000+08:00

what i want for Christmas, a fine cashmere and loads of coffee!!! i need bucks for some reason, to use the voucher entitled with any drinks, for free, be it grande or even triple venti. muahaha...alas i held back my 'golden pass' whenever i see a bucks, to prolong the time a lil, just in case my craving for it explodes while managed to resist myself from indulging it, saving it till last moment. time will have its stake and that is when i will have my cuppa caffeine <3

before i leave out something real good, canon 400D, great value offered, to want or not to want? hint: i'm broke, so now someone has to grant my wish XD

a thank you post

2009-12-15T22:12:00.000+08:00

and again, a thousand never ending thank you 's' to those who surprised me yesterday and those through facebook. my expression might not appear so but deep down you have no idea what it meant to me, personally...

you people had a rough time tricking me out eh? but i fell for it eventually... so yea, this year indeed was something special, definitely better than usuals =)

ps: for elisa and mun xin, i owe you one <3

the tale of an amateur baker

2009-12-10T21:02:00.002+08:00

the boxy appliance(oven) has been untouched for months so does the mixer and spatula. sitting at some corner in the kitchen, rusting, heartache*

it's calling the owner back and the once frequent user of these misses them too.

patience my dear, these shall be redeemed as soon as everything clears up, back to basic...

2009-12-09T20:21:00.004+08:00

my darlings <3

dearie cousins...

i don't babble here alot, so follow my tumblr instead for constant updates ;)

ps: fri is a hol, lalala

2009-12-04T19:57:00.002+08:00

large landscape with a tinge of old creepy hospital feel. but i was impressed.

and bout obs again, yes/no? seriously i'm torn in between...

megafreakin drench out from exhaustion, thoughts is filling the head and spinning like tornado.

you started this whole crap and you shall end it nicely, while i was at the verge of believing you and it's your fault if it screws up.

peace out!

2009-11-27T20:23:00.006+08:00

i had funx3 during trekaton and i know it happened like a week ago but still, i had a blast!

free high glucose level topless drinks and vouchers and burgers from twenty one kitchen (i took 2, damn greedy), syok ar!

new moon was waiting for me but end up i watched 2012, pathetic! not that that movie isn't bad but not worth my money. 3 of us practically shared couple seat, siao or not? we didn't wanted to be separated so no choice but to squueze, almost 3 hours of torture! got backache afterwards.

i swear i gained pounds today, shit that 600 cal venti latte, ishhh!!! it's been a while since the last time i had been such gluttony, lol.

ps: to go or not to go? obs.

2009-11-21T10:05:00.003+08:00

previous post labeled me as some windbag, pretty much a dolt i ve became. lol

i shall have no more granny-ish grumbles, rather post something that sparks my interest like below.

am aware of great hullabaloo has been going on bout him, still my affection for him remains hearts* boo ya rob haters!

ps: hankering people to buy me tickets =P

squinty eyes

2009-11-16T21:28:00.006+08:00

i have been living a lie. a white harmless one.

been busy is simply an excuse to keep oneself sound busy and such a cliché thing to mention in front of others. so true yet fed up of it.

neuron breakdown in any minute. not that a lot has happened recently, problem lies beneath there.

hating the fact of being estranged from the outside world. got so occupied with errants and was once a health freak, no carb lipids glucose bla bla. disgraced and ashamed of myself. poke me!

granny out of the blue called and as usual had small talk, made me miss her and some place i truly call home(where infant,toddler years spent). starting to appreciate homey cuisine, or what i name comfort food.

stuff has to be figure out cause deep down admitting i am not like any other people who would let time pass with no resolution/significance. superficially i am typical but the nasty part longed for series of emotions flowing, be it sad or joy, bland is just unacceptable.

so yeah, after this week i really have to start busying again. back to hectic deadlines and tons of undone business(which shall bore me and you), slack now, panicky at the eleventh hour, that's how i roll.

i may sound like i overreacted but the best judge for the scenario can only be me, the one who's actually aware of it, not you. thou shalt proceed to leave this space and i shall end this miserable blabbering.

time isn't forgiving and shall treasure every moment of it, missing tumblr...

2009-11-15T19:22:00.003+08:00

demeanour during lectures

classes on sat, i really have to drag myself to attend, such trouble.

miserable weekends just to replace classes on friday. did you know almost every friday in dec is a holiday?

2009-11-08T09:59:00.003+08:00

i just spilled curry all over my pjs, great way to start the day huh? blaming the grogginess from yesterday(woke up at 3.45 am and slept at 11.30 pm, you do the math).

pathetic and clumsy as i sound, i can be literally ill fated at times. like i broke the handle of mummy's fav soup boiling ceramic pot and her precious pyrex pot cover, her glowering gaze would be fixed upon the pot whenever i'm doing the dishes since then.

people, never trust me with ceramics, glass, porcelain or anything fragile and even curry! how can i get away from these series of gawkiness?

someone visited kampar yesterday and too lazy to describe anything else.

fyi: i might not be a painstaking person but see me more as a casual being.

pimp my night

2009-11-05T20:39:00.003+08:00

completely overwhelmed with weariness...

came back at 7.30 and the jam, my gosh, is something that i really cannot abide

halloween concert or messy/pitching/howling performance tormented the ears, loved the fireman best! swallowing fire, ooohh, all that sizzles!

credits are still given for putting up amazing effort, crowd was really welcoming, wish mine were like them!

part of me wants to blurt out the grumbles but could not find it right to do so, as i come up as a frivolous being, take that!

imma leave now, this thing is a drag

vegan?

2009-11-01T10:36:00.003+08:00

at a point, i felt like turning to full time vegan...

possible, i thought so since i'm not a heavy meat eater like carnivores,

practically able to have just veggies for dinner

i have only one serious obstacle i have to combat with.

: un-supportive families T_T

they lure you with takeouts and dining out, pork and more of it(not that i hate it)

sometimes it's the respect to dine together with the same dishes which caused me to break sins.

nevertheless, i shall stand on my ground firmly and gradually realizing my humble intentions...

tv/movie junkie

2009-10-27T13:03:00.002+08:00

we were chanced upon great blockbusters especially during end year by virtue it marks the end of the year and to celebrate a beginning of a new year.

die die must watch 500 days of summer( screened in the states like months ago?), new moon( how can i ever resist rob p), private lives of pippa lee( there is blake lively?), sherlock holmes( jude law dudes, always been a loyal reader), mj's this is it( tribute to him, must watch), and pisau cukur( modern indie film, rare)

are my reasonings potent enough for you to watch?

but de facto 60's era produced major prominent movies and i myself simply can't help but to dig it alot!

im a lil hippy at heart albeit the acid rock music, surely to wonder what's with the sudden period cause recently have been passing time with out dated movies like funny girl, guess who's coming for dinner and so fourth which hatched my liking for it.

just to clarify myself, 'tv' occupies a large part in me, without it, there will be no me, it stood by me throughout and brought me out of the gloomy days and managed to pull a smile on my face, it provided comfort as it does not betray and showered all sorts of emotions i feel like having.

if asked what can't i live without, you know what it is...

bedtime stories

2009-10-23T16:16:00.003+08:00

an oxford dictionary,
authentic French food guide,
and expired harpers bazaar, i bought because cover was alexa chung ;)

that's what under the bed at the moment, a ritual for me to read before bedtime or else i'll be diagnosed with insomnia!

first week wasn't that bad, yet! i can foresee the franticness ahead, mount of assignments and presentation waiting to be done...

weekends here, enjoy peeps!

ps: web page design is funfunfun!!! in process of mastering the codes

2009-10-20T18:15:00.003+08:00

her sinewy has flowed down to the drain,

which turned her feeble.

she continues to struggle and writhed in a place where her belongingness do not exist.

the jovial, hyper, skittish girl i once known or was, could no where be found.

but someone similar has adapted to a new solitary and dull lifestyle.

it wasn't her fault that she changed that way, the scenario were to blamed.

premises were made, i wonder if it's true.

and she shall wait for a metamorphosis.

ps: she may known as anonymous and shall not be judged...

2009-10-17T10:08:00.002+08:00

i made carrot cakes on thursday, boy it was good.

planning to bake s'mores tomorrow, hehehee

in fact, you can call me a domestic goddess by now since i've starting to be a homey person.

preparing lunches for the siblings and they get chances to taste scrumptious tea cakes, has confirmed my potential of turning to next martha stewart.

oh, i made latkes.
fyi, its eaten by Jews for the celebration of Hanukkah.

The oil for cooking the latkes is reminiscent of the oil from the Hanukkah story that kept the Second Temple of ancient Israel lit with a long-lasting flame that is celebrated as a miracle.

don't get me wrong, it's not like i'm being jewish here but undeniably jewish are hot, no, they're the wittiest ethnics on earth. so true. i always liked potato patties so just making it the jewish style.

and,

last but not least, wishing all Hindus,

'HAPPY DEEPAVALI'

2009-10-14T10:09:00.003+08:00

met up with these babes yesterday, so kind of me to look for them, lol

bump to rachel and oh, jessica, it's been a while. at least 3 months ago i guess.

hmmm, can't help but to rewind to those days, good times...

just lost my mood, done here, enough, off to tumblr =P

2009-10-12T11:27:00.003+08:00

a week to go before school starts, and there's still many undone business.

like i vowed to make cream puffs and visit sw, summer and peoples.

guess have to do it quick or else there won't be much time left.

i prefer short updates instead of long-winded post cause it's just too troublesome.

simplicity and short,

how do you think?

and oh, tumblr is my new drug, daily updates from random inspiration to current mode, much easier and faster and i like the casualness of it which this one does not offer. so sorry lor

2009-10-12T10:41:00.004+08:00

snejana onopka

♥♥♥

I ♥...

2009-10-08T15:52:00.000+08:00

I ♥ the musky scent of the after rain
I ♥ when i spot the word 'sales', elevates the mood in a jiffy
I ♥ the adrenalin pump after a good workout
I ♥ to know that i have bunch of supporters (friends) to back me up
I ♥ to see the outcome of my creation, by that i meant baked goodies
I ♥ to be inspired by voguish humans
I ♥ when people acknowledges good deeds and respond with a token of gratitude
I ♥ to savour every bite of food consumed
I ♥ it when giving recompense in recognition of someone's act, call it being grateful
I ♥ daydreaming, preferably visualization to be exact

lasly,

I just ♥ to be part of mother's nature

"Love is a familiar. Love is a devil. There is no evil angel but Love", William Shakespeare

with a mere of the magic three words expressed to loved ones, simply makes the world a whole lot worthier. agree much?

jumbo burgers

2009-10-06T21:42:00.003+08:00

updates: click

ps: idle way of blogging, pardon me.

2009-10-05T16:07:00.002+08:00

like finally, very first pair of ray bans

and first ever gila and make you gaga over sky high wedge!
i guess i was in hyperventilating state when i bought this...

over all i spent round 200 bucks for 6 to 7 items, flimsy huh? but it's true
time square is the destination for frugally people like me,
don't be too hype over the prices as the items, mostly are wear and tear conditions.

still, contented with my lugging, retail therapy made me a jolly girl =)

ps: i'm easily pleased..

2009-10-03T12:50:00.002+08:00

wishing all chinese or whoever that celebrates mooncake festival,

中秋节快乐!

ps: thunderbirds are making so much noise, oh well, who to blame for staying just next to T.U.D.M

crushing on

2009-10-02T14:28:00.007+08:00

stumbled upon her and fell in love instantaneously,

theselby,style,randomblogs

i would love to raid her closet, click to see her NY residence.
daughter to Carine Roitfeld, lucky girl
fab mum and daughter = perfect pair

bangs

2009-09-30T21:22:00.008+08:00

made cupcakes today. so proud cause usually i failed making it but this time it rised just the way i wanted, yumX3!

and i sorta chopped the fringe, hehehe

please don't say i looked like some lolita, cause i'm NOT!

lost in transition

2009-09-28T11:32:00.006+08:00

immersed in own thoughts. 100% drenched out cause of it.

i've got nothing much to be done or shall i rather say procrastinate to do items.

1u wasn't as great as expected. got dumped, no abandoned and isolated by you know who.

people do change. it's either for the better or the worst.

i have a feeling, something or someone is definitely disturbing you.

don't assume you got it quite right.

nevertheless,

Auf wiedersehen!

jln kuchai lama

2009-09-25T19:15:00.006+08:00

the green iguana greets hello,

started with lunch (not shown), then a cuppa capuccino for teatime

then the vain pot me snapping away with phone,

frankie,
mi kee,
and elisa =)

sleepy day, don't know why my eyes was so dry and got a tummy ached afterwards (till now T_T), must be the pan mee. no mood to shop at all, didn't spend a penny on stuff except food *smirks*
1U tomorrow! wheee

tata...

2009-09-23T20:27:00.002+08:00

i guess i'll be blogging really frequent cause i'm a freeman in town. wakaka. no la, just bored out of my fucking mind since nothing to do so will occupy time by blogging...

miss outing ALOT. haven't done that in ages and i really wanna go to this event, fml.

ps: i really screwed up my paper today. having very lil hope, just to pass, is that too much to ask for?

2009-09-22T16:59:00.004+08:00

nice pose monkey

see the monkeys?

padi

for raya, went to Kuala Selangor and Sekinchan, known as rice bowl of Selangor.

the food, ohmygod, divine... waited for 1 hour but worth while.
seriously the seafood, prawns and fishes, it's like freshly out of the water and slaughtered on the spot. if you know how much i detest eating sharks because it stinks and taste real bad, but this time it made me ate wanting for more.

must go there for seafood some more..
lazy to upload more pic, been switching to tumblr every now and then, much simple and faster.

before i ciao, wish me luck for acct tomorrow. shudders*

micro 4/3 lens

2009-09-18T22:29:00.004+08:00

GF1

E-p1

either one, come to mama...

2009-09-17T11:58:00.003+08:00

shouldn't be here,
loosing concentration,
cannot digest whatever shit i read,

all im ruminating about is the BEP concert and random thoughts, ishh,
this is really disturbing

and cockeyed.

where has my focus gone???

wait,
input, output, storage, networking, info system have not covered so does past year quest.
(ignore me)

swiftly taylor

2009-09-16T20:37:00.005+08:00

omg! major kanye embarassment moment. that guy must have been drunk and unconscious enough to diss taylor on stage, poor helpless taylor.

shame on you, and she totally deserve the award, loved her subway performance.

dude, taylor rocks your boxer off!

my thoughts are so occupied with what to do during sem break, 3 weeks long and i need to be productive like earning income? because i'm eyeing on some real good stuff and the parents wouldn't pay for it!

but no one's hiring people for 3 weeks only and i want my job to be the way i like it, has to fullfill my boundless basic requirement. and i am choosey like that.

LG promoter job is up for grab but it's on weekends and interviews tomorrow but i wanna stay in and study cause it's freaking cs.
whimpering to pass that paper badly or else, cannot bear the consequences ... T~T

how? how? how? chewing over dilemmas. am a damsel in distress, haha, suits me well i reckon. suppose to be studying, someone remind me what am i doing here?

contagious contagious

2009-09-11T20:12:00.003+08:00

i swear i thought i could've got that contagious flu.

that f* nosy lady behind me kept coughing and the minute she coughs everyone will turn at her like what the fuck is wrong with her. if you're sick then don't come la, making us so worried.

unlucky me sitting in front of her, held my breath long enough each time she coughs to convince myself the germs had gone.

paper was i okay except the fact that my head keeps playing BEP's I've got a feeling. don ask why but i kindda like it. yer, i sound so cheesy...

weekends here and maths test is tomorrow, urghh, pathetic weekend

天长地久

2009-09-09T15:32:00.010+08:00

9.09.09

one of chinese favourite numbers, symbolizes 久, in other words longevity.

if what it says is true, imma be a jap one day.

trying to eat healthy lately, cutting down on calories, avoiding carb, if possible gluten free for every meal...

longevity, that's what i was aiming for, for future...

i just need to feel good, obsessed with my weight currently.

too bad i had to make this buttermilk cake somehow, cannot resist the ever so easy recipe, too tempted so i gave a try and the result:

compare to this original from smittenkitchen:

not bad huh! only difference is i optioned for strawberries instead of raspberries, and mine is square. nonetheless, tasted as good as it looked, absolutely scrumptious!

oh glorious food

2009-09-04T15:16:00.009+08:00

today marked my last day in TA1. i'm gonna miss everyone...

i've been a good girl, skipping classes for study group.

and my poor tummy has been aching for the past few days, almost past out because of it. been munching on bread and water, so blah...

met up with dearest cousin for dinner in papa john the other day, good pizzas btw.

and i miss granny's nasi kerabu tumis very much!

an authentic kelantanese cuisine.

the aftermath, you suppose to kacau it and voila, a wholesome meal filled with herbs and veggies and fish and pork and of course, sambal! slurps* looks eerie but the taste just spells yumm.

my recent post have gone rojak, irrelevant topics all mixed up, must be confusing. do excuse me for my lazyness to update regularly. this is an example work piece of a lazy blogger.

ps: craving for ice-cream but the stomach just couldn't take it. life without good food is totally suicidal. what's the point of living then?

TA1

2009-08-29T11:07:00.005+08:00

greetings,

art exhibition done by art students.

the birthday boy.

lucky daryl. it was his day

play,
makan,
meetings and
a lil bit of revision,

that practically sums up my week in utar. it's week 14 already. TA1 will be separated for next sem, boohoo..

when you are just about to know them, sem 1 is coming to an end. remember how i object to utarians so much at the beginning? now i'm getting used to them but doesn't mean i'm loving it, not just yet.

i have to appreciate friendship but to start a relationship is kindda tough for me. simply because i ain't those superficial people who act nice to whoever shit they're interested to.

it takes time for me to bond, i believe in understanding a person before you get serious with them so it takes time, right? by then we want to get serious it'll be a lil too late at times. i promise i'll be more open next time..

ps: 1u anyone? and i miss the 2 girls very very much.. dying to see them, urghh.

intranet

2009-08-25T20:20:00.002+08:00

hello world,

blank minded right now, want to post something but don't know what to share.

i'll start with what i'm up to now.

i get to pick and plan my very own time table for sem 2. awesome! i was thinking coming in late for class at 10 everyday, wouldn't it be lovely? no jams plus i get to sleep longer =)

finals are coming up in like 2 weeks? and i have not started a thing. boo...

i guess that is it. waiting to log in to intranet for registration. everyone is eager. funny sight to see cause everyone is skipping class just to log in ;) funny la

talkshow

2009-08-23T10:19:00.001+08:00

tpy in action

the prostitute aka class rep, daryl

mun xin, vino and moi

pinkie swear

finished our talkshow like two weeks ago,

now only felt like blogging bout it. damn, no pictures on my debate, it was horrifying anyway.

finals coming up, and more activities to be planned, brainstorming session peeps.

ps: i was kena panggang by DSA the other day, 20 mimnutes of bla bla aka interrogating session bout our punctuality, i mean i admit we were late for 3 hours on that day but c'mon la, we are like wht? 18? and a lil rebel ain't harm right, plus it wasn't an important event, it's just freaking flower selling for Christ sake, oh gimme a break. of course we lied our butts off tak kan we tell him bout our marathons *coughs* i felt like strangling him on the spot, he has this attitude which is just so... ishhh , nvm, lets just forget bout it.

2009-08-17T20:45:00.003+08:00

laziness again, so imma shut my mouth and stop typing and let the pictures do the talking kay?

pulai spring golf course

that was how i spent my last weekends. a little late to ask but how was yours?

i sure did enjoyed mine =)

2009-08-17T15:32:00.002+08:00

the late mademoiselle

cannot wait for the movie to release. she's always been a fashion icon to us especially me, a movie tribute to her is definitely worth it.

ps: pulai was okay, serene much, a getaway from the usual hustle bustle life. will update later...

toodles!

a day in kl

2009-08-10T14:58:00.012+08:00

flower selling at wisma mca for the august convocation, kononnya fund raising for our society, i call it makan our duit, pfft

marathon begins!

sampat jo lyn and the poser

suppose to be awesome foursome, minus jiafong the photographer.

time square, random shop named i socks, perfect place to hunt for costumes

lunch! consist of high calorific fries =(

a marathon day in kl i would say.

we suppose to be selling flowers but

where we went?

this is how the marathon started:

me: let's go klcc since it's just blocks away...

jolyn: ok, we jalan there since so near.

arrived klcc.

elisa: yer, all so pricey, cannot afford la.

jf: ya la, let's go time square instead.

went to concierge and asked for directions, silly us actually believed it's a 20 minutes walk so we walked from klcc, pass through pavillion, then bb plaza and finally TIMES SQUARE!

it was almost a 40 minutes walk if not mistaken and elisa phone was able to count the distance we walked and guess wht, freaking 11km! don't forget the 30minutes walk from UTAR to Asia Jaya as well. total= almost 20km walk, ain't that marathon?

it was pointless walking there, ended up in mcd and did not get my krispy kreme =(

honestly, stop larking around. we were silly enough to walk and was caught to go back for duties.

feet were ghastly soring and by the time we went back for our 2 hours of practically standing flower selling, legs were wobbly and excruciating in pain.

lesson number 1: never walk in kl, you'll definitely get lost.

lesson number 2: never trust the concierge

lesson number3: never be too adventurous, it brings harm more than fun.

i was concern about the flu when we were packed in the train but we couldn't careless about wearing mask, oh well, at least i'm perfectly fine for now.

ps: kosmo! futsal, anyone?

2009-08-08T18:39:00.003+08:00

i may seem strong but emotionally i am week. like cotton candy on the inside and plastic wrapper on the outside. bad description?

I'm just too damn good at hiding it. it's true.
cause i don't see right people to talk to, no one seems trust able, so keeping thoughts to myself.

i get misunderstand easily and easily affected by words and actions.

just a simple gesture touches me. which is why i get heart broken fast and it sucks.

i hate going through those feeling anymore. which is why i avoid certain people that interest me.

some human are just fucking nice by nature and it's hard to not be misunderstood. with all the almost perfect conditions, it definitely adds on, do you get what i mean?

i don't think you do. oh well, bottom line is i got it, and holding on to it. that's all i need to know.

ps: still i don't see changes so far, all the efforts has gone to waste...

2009-08-07T00:00:00.002+08:00

i'm blogging at 12.00 am,

wht the hell am i doing now?

Bloody computer studies assignment.

Shucks, i'm not done with it and tomorrow's the dateline.

die lor *gasp*

bloody hell, assignments waiting.

snooze out...

2009-08-05T18:55:00.003+08:00

boohoo...

i thought i can finally settle down but guess wht, kosmo! futsal's coming soon, and i'm so not going cos i'm on vacation. sacrificed too much, time to back out.

i loathed computer studies, especially the assignment, i failed the test and the fucking assignment is killing me, not forgetting the debate session. faints*

i need shopping to boost myself, shitty shoe just made my day day worst (today was presentation, meeting & math test). i'm smelling shopping spree very soon.

did i mention i eat economic rice and bread like everyday? seriously they should open one cafe or an eatery place instead of depending on one tiny canteen and fucking expensive mamak, i'll be your daily loyal customer for sure.

ps: i hate it when hot guys get ugly gf, life's so unfair!

2009-08-03T19:06:00.003+08:00

i just had my monday blues as usual, bet everyone encounters it all the time.

Sports carnival, can't find words to describe. am too indolent to do so.

beyond exhausted.

having mood swings.

so do not bug me!!!

2009-08-01T09:58:00.007+08:00

the following post is a combination of many random topics shrunk to one. was lazy.

i was sien

My English assignment, kudos to Jia Fong

view from rooftop.

i laminated all 80 tags by myself kay, plus the trimming & punching. self torture.

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this week past like lightning, it felt like just within seconds and it's considered a week. over exaggerated much. but time flies, imagine in seconds wonders can happened and the opposite as well. crapping already.

moving on, i had a busy (like a bee buzz buzz, tired of this word already) yet really sien week cause nothing fun happened. so it's just plain sien and meaningful(it's work tht's why). UTAR memang SIEN ar...

Sports carnival, tomorrow! no more sien (notice i've been repeating this alot, hehe), it'll be CRAZY!!!

i really work my butt off for this event so don't screw me up. juggling test, assignment, organizing at the same time, ain't easy peasy ya'll.

thank goodness i hav this:
and this for survival,

i heart vivi, especially Rinka, do excuse the person behind *shy*

thank goodness...

sports carnival

2009-07-26T11:48:00.006+08:00

halo...

as usual, busy week ahead.

i think i will be hanging out alot in sports centre. i so wanna play squash and the gym, fully equipped. workout session dudes. witness my biceps in another few months time, it'll be buffed! lol

anyway sports carnival in a week time. i can feel the adrenaline rush already.
my very first sports club event. better be a good one. fingers crossed*
sort of a carnival themed sports competition. picture vendors everywhere with games and cotton candy while a tournament going on. interesting?
it's a whole day fun filled event and open to public so feel free to stop by.
location: KTAR, setapak, KL.
date: 2nd august
time:8 am - 6 pm

signing off...

i've been

2009-07-21T19:55:00.003+08:00

>thinking alot or rather say too much?
>feeling nausea when it comes to the word couples.
>occupied for every single moment.
>recording daily expenditures which is a good way to start saving.
>listening to MJ songs.
>reading and analyzing recipes.
>doing some stretching before bed, i feel overweight these days.
>recalling what i've ate in a day, counting calories, wtf.
>consuming junks to pass time, serious. every time i'm bored i'll chew on sth.
>a good girl, i seldom or rarely daydream anymore. i used to, often back then.
>enjoying or shall i say getting used to aloneness?
>contemplating about every actions or decisions that i'm about to make.
>holding back my thoughts, blogging is the way to let it out. i just noticed i blog a lot lately even though i've been busy. weird.
>sleep on people's idea rather than making out one.
>letting others taking advantage on me. BAD.
>coming up with new hobbies. i was thinking something extreme like go carts? or tennis? i really wanna try. generating some sports cells here.
>learning hard in accounts.
>admiring friends who actually owns a car.
>crushing on no ONE. hardly find any worthy ones to be admired.
>wondering if i've turned to a lala cause i've been hanging out with them too often.
>determined to explore the world before i die. there's too much to see and feel.
>setting goals in life. including investing in a restaurant of my own.
>salivating bout good food.
>enjoying the sight of contents in my bag. it's packed and filled with stuffs including my thermos mug. kid you not.
>indulging in the world of coffee and most important
>addicted to caffeine.
>spending on ridiculous stuff that ended up not been used.
>loving and appreciating writers artwork.
>trying seize upon every chances given and grasping on it but fail to do so.
>perfecting myself? wish to...
>live life to the fullest. (almost)
>loosing contacts with good friends and
missing them dearly.
>inspired by amazing photographs and hoping to create something out of it. a scrapbook will be cool, as soon as i'm done with test.
>not productive but
slowly coming out with a to do list.
>maybe slacking a lil here and there.
>feeling blissful when i have a good company or even a meaningful movie will make my day happy
>praying for a great day out with friends.
>succumbed to superiors. pfft
>watching ugly betty and came to a conclusion it's the best tv series ever.
>frequently logged on to facebook and abandoning msn.
>thinking of a new hair cut, current one bores me.
>whining on totally necessary issues. even the slightest discomfort it caused.
>bewildered with what i'm doing now or pursuing in future.
>cursing the internet connections. it sucks big time. i mean streamyx is getting on my nerve. urgggh
>anticipating for a change.

and

definitely struggling to find balance.

ps: really long post. been inspired by other bloggers so giving it a try. really random thoughts.

off to finish up mountains of assignments.

hasta la vista...

eyes that talks

2009-07-18T12:24:00.005+08:00

my neighbour cats. adorable much. 3 cats who always lepak outside my house.

"The face is the mirror of the mind, and eyes without speaking confess the secrets of the heart." by Gods Emeral

i'm having sore eyes. one side swollen, darn it.

clarifying one thing, i hate accounts. the worst subject EVER!!!

MJ songs are constantly repeating itself on my mind.
- man in the mirror
- black or white
- smooth criminal
- the way you make me feel
- billie jean
i wanna get all his cds and Harry Potter! owh, i miss him dearly. when to watch? transformer also not yet watch. i'm so outdated.

stop distracting me with movies, need to get back to studies, pronto!

toodles..

2009-07-16T19:14:00.002+08:00

i can feel my nerve wrecking, dark circles formed, few strands of white hair growing, and the eye balls shrinking. arnold always say i look messy as if i just woke up. =.=

all i need is time. tht's all. some precious time to sort things out. then i'll be fine.

ktar was ermm no fun at all. walkx3, tht's what me and and the other 4 officers did. no chance to actually observe leng chais and forgotten bout taking pictures. T_T

humongous and a happening campus i would say, should have went there instead of boring utar. i have ns friends who's studying there unfortunately didn't bump into any. sad la. wanted to call Aaron out but with officers around, pai seh la.

i think i look dreadfully sick. how?
i need sleeps, longer sleeping hours, 8 to 9 will be sufficient. ya, i really need that.

2009-07-14T18:36:00.004+08:00

how nice would it be to go back to childhood days. i miss those innocence.

next two weeks will be hell. mid term season has arrived. ECONS tomorrow!!!! brainstorming*

probably going KTAR this thursday for sports thingy ( and go spot leng chais >.< hehehe). plenty of stuff going on my mind now, need to be focused and energized at all time. that's why i have my daily dose of coffee, they don't call me OL(office lady) or coffee girl for nothnig kay.

for real, did not expect this position at all. it's like money dropping down from the sky, didn't go through much to get this position and i really don't deserve it. and the boys in class, stop teasing me, i have a name and it isn't sport club!!! why la me? ishhh ishh

still, have to accept the fact i have to be responsible for everything i do, slacking already. shit.

here i am, still blogging happily away. promised not to play but computer was on, cannot resist. pathetic me. econs tomorrow, still not studying. sigh*

so much to do yet so little time. i need some space, or a break at least. i think i have to separate myself into pieces...

ps: there's this girl in my class stalking me and elisa, poor us. she's trying to hit on us and we were running our pants off as soon as we left our class. hilarious la. no kidding, she admitted to us she's actually L! terrified much. FYI i'm no fan of lesbians so shoo you stalker, you're making me sick. pukes*

an early birthday post to Elisa who will be turning 18 tomorrow. have a good one, too bad she found out and look out ya. she knows bout it. lol.

a big smiley face

2009-07-10T18:31:00.005+08:00

it's been a busy week and hard to believe that i'm actually starting to enjoy college.

a lot are going on but i'm loving the workloads and pressure *gagged*

crazy, tell me bout it.

the thing is i need to be occupied so that i won't feel bored and dull. of course i'm showing the extrovert side in me which gained friends which is pretty awesome.

played BASKETBALL the other day and it felt like dodge ball.

it hit right on my face and ouch!

cause i sucked at it. i was forced to play by seniors okay. at least i know basketball is so not my thing.

one thing i've learned throughout my six weeks in utar is never be judge mental bout something cause you never know what to expect.

that's all for now and a busy month ahead to handle. test, assignment and events are awaiting me. being chairman is not as easy as it seems, look out world cause here i come...

2009-07-05T11:24:00.008+08:00

the ah mat, shu zhen

nat! miss her loads.

teehee.. another ah mat

lastly, the refurbished toilet

we were like must go check out the toilet when we arrive. and it is indeed a nice looking toilet. too bad all new facilities only arrived after we left. wat the heck.

i had heaps of fun yesterday. bump into old classmates, met teachers and peoples. reminiscing.
the charity sale itself suck. incomparable to our previous years. shifty eyes*
the main purpose of going back was to meet up with lost contact friends. dang, people do change.

i was like asking sw did she changed and she said not much i think. how bout me? not in terms of appearance cause that's just bullshit besides the weight i gained but other than that did i changed for the better goodness? no clue. i wished i had after those incidents that occurred for the last half year, i really do. cause i really hate myself sometimes.

another thing is i really envy those who got license and can drive. unlike me, after enduring those torturing test, i still don't have the courage to drive. parents cars are manual, i don't think i can drive manual so might as well don't drive. i know i need to test drive or else all those effort are wasted. i will try to drive, someday. crossed fingers*

2009-07-02T17:16:00.000+08:00

isshh,

i said i would give it a try, and it's week 5 already. and school stills sucks the hell out of me.

not even a moment of enjoyment. *growls*

all assignments and mid term comes in a package,plain insane. some more my group contain non-cooperative people, don't know wht to think at this point.

the usual me will just procrastinate till the very last minute, this time cannot la.
or else can't make it on time. 4 group assignments,6 test. less than a month for mid terms and assignment to due. *squeezing brains*
plus the long hours(8 to 5 or longer)in school is driving me nuts. can literally imagine what my future work life will be. really no life man. college has taken over as my first home. you have to agree with me.

praying hard : oh lord, give me strength and power to get through these or a miracle to happen that can totally change the way im living now. being religious all of sudden, so not me, but when desperation meets neccessity, it's definitely worth a try. im crapping now cause emoing has made me this way.

im just looking forward to this sat cause it's hari keluarga for smksu. yay! i seriously miss highschool, period.

one malaysia

2009-06-28T19:09:00.009+08:00

me in XL (they said blue shirt for celcom, yellow for digi, red for hotlink? lol)

balloons!!

one malaysia

the su trio in TA1

greetings people,

no urbanscapes for me this year, instead i went to dataran merdeka for 1 Malaysia. pei yeen being patriotic, rare...

was lame and we did senam seni exactly like the one constructed in camp.

then went pyramid walked alone while waiting. sad case. at least i bought something again! boring place, pyramid, urggh

so did i stayed up watching MJ's concert. his stage performance is incredibly energetic. no one can ever be him... i ended up feeling really worn out. sleepy head*

never was a huge fan of him but i never realized his importance to the world until he died. people are mourning and i just feel sorry for him. all i can say is his fame caused his death. such gifted person filled with sorrow life. a waste indeed. dealing with accusation, financial bankruptcy and health issues, i can't deal with these if i were in his shoes. poor Michael, so long your music exist so long you'll live in our hearts.

iconic black or white, my fav from the King Of Pop

no fuss

2009-06-26T16:14:00.004+08:00

oh me gosh

i just bought super duper cheap beauty products.

there's from skin care to hair care to even cosmetics. it was really CHEAP! but not the brand k, it's loreal paris warehouse sales. you never heard of it means you're just to ignorant.

one thing great studying in factory area is there's always warehouse sales. you know me being frugal will never miss such opportunity so even though i seldom use cosmetics i still buy. it's just gonna rot in one corner. lol.

i don't know is it a great day for me or not. since i'm elected as chairman now, i'm not sure is it a good news or the opposite. with math test next week(die) and public speaking and assignments and bla bla, can i cope with it?

pressure is definitely on. i need urbanscapes to release stress. hell ya i must go, shit that flu la, causing me miserable unnecessary headaches... isshh...

ps: not forgetting the tragic death of beloved Michael Jackson, such loss to the entertainment world. death can be so unpredictable, agree?

he looked so much better this way, rest in peace MJ

2009-06-21T17:54:00.003+08:00

MOOKS & Plasterdoll shopping bags giveaway

Mechanics: We've paired up with Mooks and we have limited shopper bags featuring Plasterdoll, to give away. Just head on out to the MOOKS Booth on that day & take a snapshot with your phone / digital camera and come show us at the TONGUE in CHIC Booth to redeem your free Mooks x TONGUE in CHIC shopper bag. LImited while stocks lasts.

OMG!!! urbanscapes is on again.

went last year with nat and afif and had a blast!

this year, must go but i have 1 teeny weeny prob.

no money...(not funny k) spend ALOT this month, wat happened to my budget plan? not working, sad case.

how to spend i ask u. last year i lugged a topshop shopping bag home filled with goodies. this year i wish to get the plasterdoll bag. i can feel the shopping aura already, wtf.

another thing, transport and parents permission. always an obstacle. you know la sentul wat kind of place is it, they ll start worrying and i have to persuade them somehow. so to go or not to go?*frustrating*

2009-06-16T20:11:00.004+08:00

the infamous blogger, rumi!!

can see my hair colour. weeee

yup, this is utar's library. pretty looking huh? it's almost empty. utterly cold and quiet, like it suppose to be!
to my utmost surprise, i came to a conclusion that library is the perfect hideout spot for couples. ooohhh... now you know where to make out without being seen. smirks*

i hang out a lot in library these days. spend my break time online. sad huh? cause it's so hard to online back home. curse that modem or server or whatever tht's causing terrible connection. what a meaningless life. slowly, i promise, i ll get more friends and then i get to have a life back. i swear!!!

ps: my phone got hacked the other day, was freaking worried bout the extra charges. phone bill went up up up this month kena lectured by dad. phewww... be in control yeen!

2009-06-14T12:51:00.003+08:00

i miss ns, really. life seems better over there.
presentation for public speaking due next week. lecturers actually warned us bout it.
apparently every subjects assignment deals with presentation, wat the heck! even computer studies okay...

till then signing off...

ps: me bought new phone like finally, yippee. and it turned out to be sony phone. lol. parents don't know bout it yet cause i curi-curi sneak out of hse and buy. hehehe.

2009-06-12T10:25:00.000+08:00

i want to update but it's hard.
cause my modem have problem and i can only online using the library comp.
sucks man.

plus the boringness life in utar, it just makes the matter hell worst. emoing again. and my phone broke down, no messages in like a week, frustrating here.
i really regretted going to utar, elisa plans to change tosunway which means i'll be left alone. people here are seriously not my type. no leng chai some more. ishhhh... i want to update facebook and everything cause it's so dead now but i really couldnt online. it's like living in a world of my own,no contact with outside world, fucking annoying, it bothers me alot.

who say college life is fun. at least it's not to me...
on second thought, maybe i should give some time to myself.

i'm missing ns(friends only k). life seems worst than ns over here, honestly...

ps: i passed my driving 3times test already, geng right? waited like 7 fucking hours and drove at 8.30 at night, siao or not!luckily zen li was there, if not can literally die. major butt aching. lol

techno geek

2009-05-30T11:37:00.003+08:00

don know why i just prefer nokia phone. im not really a die hard fan of nokia but im no fan of sony ericsson either.

i love touch screen phone don ask why, it's a trend now, everyone's into it since the invention of iphone. im one of them. but as a careless person( you should see the damage i done to my current one), it's up to no good once it falls in my hands.
i'll just stick to the conventional steady keypad phone and nokia as it's famed for being tough or heavy duty, drop a few times? no problem, still functioning, mine is a living proof. feel like im promoting nokia here..*smirks*

5800, touch screen, so pretty...

5610, this got my highest vote

n81, second option

i need to change phone. current one is old and ugly.

any thoughts? hmmm...

2009-05-28T14:05:00.003+08:00

peek a boo

here comes the stare

looking good in tux as usual, he pulls it off best, agree? no?

i still melt whenever i see him, cant resist tht hotness... here comes the tingling, yikes!

shit.

i can feel the deathness of this blog. it's dead. im sure.

im dead too. i failed my driving test(both, hell ya) and i admit it's partly my fault and of course tht stupid retarded kancil fault too. oh well, better luck next time. retaking next week, and hopefully no kopi duit needed, depending on own skill to pass, not possible eh? i feel like a looser all of the sudden. sigh*
i really really do not like to drive =(

this few days i've been emoing AGAIN!!! i need to get out of my house, i need meet ups, and a bag for class, cant believe i haven get one.

did i mention bout orientation? well, it was dead boring and i skipped=)
guess who's with me, vanissa, elisa and jia yi. wat a total coincidence.
btw, we're taking foundation in arts in utar pj campus and tht place sucks. at least there's jaya one there which isn't so bad, a hangout spot at least. just have to endure for a year and off i go to kampar where the gorgeous campus lies. hehehe...

p/s:i need to revamp my blog, gosh, i need help!

guess who's back, back again...

2009-05-14T16:24:00.007+08:00

kem princess haliza (sepang)
kump 2 siri 6 2009
kompeni bravo
no. index 322

bravoo

i have alif in my camp, suki and diana danielle, lol

dorm mates

im back for good...

unexpected great things happened. so much for my total objection to ns at the beginning, now im missing it..

camp life, there's dark and bright side.

friends are what you cherished most throughout...

for those who had misconception towards ns, overall, i think i enjoyed it! so no fear to ns peeps, it's 1oo% guaranteed fun!!! (despite first week there was hell and the cameras flashing everywhere, grrr)

stay tuned on the 29th June, 9.30pm, every friday, project ns only on 8tv... must watch ar

2009-03-18T16:24:00.002+08:00

will be away in less than 24 hours for a month and half, if it's possible.

till then, so long suckers, be back in action soon enough to kick you off!

i'll seek for vengeance... (to god knows who,lol)

ps: yesterday was my last day at work, just a fairly casual goodbye, will miss them all, great colleagues are hard to find, take that piece of advice and appreciate the time you have with them.

counting down in 5,4,3,2,1... doomsday

2009-03-13T22:18:00.004+08:00

eye lids are shutting down at any moment...

i'm real sleepy now, just a short update.

i'm happy or shall i say satisfied with the results so i'm cool with it. pats shoulder* be modest py!

no celebrations yet. or can i make it in time? ns is next week, and still working dutifully till my last day.

on the bright side, i got rewarded and it's definitely well paid. *smirks*

am desperate to spent but be in control with friends, i need a life!
i miss them all, when i saw them yesterday, it was just a brief reunion, we didn't went deep in conversation and totally understand the situation. another gathering perhaps?

till then, have a great start for those who's entering any college or like me, going for ns, good luck and take care, please DONT DIE!!! (maybe i exaggerated a tad too much, trying to emphasize on death, wtf)

adieu!

ps: what should i get for myself? or more importantly, cheer me self up. =(

likeatragicsmile

metamorphosis

think of me? will ya?

gather-round

missing the pouring rain

charmed by a train

too occupied for you

hi there strangers

envious

wooing over you =D

promiscuous

flickering away

santa rang my doorbell with illuminating glow, how comforting...

a thank you post

the tale of an amateur baker

squinty eyes

pimp my night

vegan?

tv/movie junkie

bedtime stories

I ♥...

jumbo burgers

crushing on

bangs

lost in transition

jln kuchai lama

micro 4/3 lens

swiftly taylor

contagious contagious

天 长 地 久

oh glorious food

TA1

intranet

talkshow

a day in kl

sports carnival

i've been

eyes that talks

"The face is the mirror of the mind, and eyes without speaking confess the secrets of the heart." by Gods Emeral

a big smiley face

one malaysia

no fuss

MOOKS & Plasterdoll shopping bags giveaway

techno geek

guess who's back, back again...

counting down in 5,4,3,2,1... doomsday

天长地久